For God saved us and called us to live a holy life. He did this, not because we deserved it, but because that was his plan from before the beginning of time–to show us his grace through Christ Jesus. -2 Timothy 1:9
I am back at it, I am in Honduras and enjoying every second. This was the 5th time I have stepped off the plane into Honduras and every time as soon as I smell the Honduran air a sense of joy fills me up and then peace washes over me…I have had that feeling since my first time in Honduras. I have no idea if this is where God wants me for the rest of my life but because of that feeling (as well as many other reminders along the way) I have complete peace in knowing I am exactly where he wants me at the moment. Every step of the way I praise him for bringing me along on this journey.
But still no matter how much joy and peace I have a piece of me wants more. I believe as a result of sin we have a constant desire to want more, we are never satisfied. I love the music from “Hamilton” and “The Greatest Showman” both of these musicals have a song that talk about this. Every time I hear those songs I think, “I need to share Jesus with them…because Jesus will satisfy them.” Though I love what I do here I still miss my family, I miss certain foods, I miss a different kind of freedom I have in the States, and to be honest, I miss hot showers…hah! I realize I have the same human condition as the characters singing those songs; I love what I do and where I am but I want more.
When I was in the states people asked me if I missed Honduras. I would always answer, “Yes, but it is a double blessing/curse, when I am here I miss there, when I am there I miss here.” I never have enough. But, I am reminded of what I learned my second time in Honduras, a lesson that will always stick with me. It is a story for another day, but this is the thought, “If at the end of the day I am left with nothing, I will still have Christ and He is all I need.”
Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory. -Romans 5:2
This is kind of a change in subject but it all fits, I promise:) In the bible study I attend with ladies from my church we are talking about change in people…I have only been back for one meeting and I haven’t caught up yet but the last lesson was titled “So, You are Married to Christ”. The other women talked about how they don’t usually think of their relationship with God in that way, they think of him as more of a father figure. I agree with that but it is also so beautiful to imagine the perfect love story. Still being single, as well as being surrounded by friends and family who are about to step into the beautiful relationship of marriage, I can’t help but fantasize about my perfect marriage. Now…I know there is no such thing, because there are no perfect people. But the beautiful things to think about in a marriage are that there will always be someone who is there to care for you, someone to talk to and call your best friend, to share with, to provide for, to love you when you are at your best AND worst, and someone to look at you and think, “You are the most beautiful of all.” All of these sound like things my parents have done for me but the difference between my father and my future husband is that I get to choose who my future husband is and he gets to choose me, of all people…he will choose me! And that is a beautiful picture.
The women in my bible study didn’t want to compare Christ to their husbands because they know how imperfect their husbands are. No matter how good your marriage is there are always problems….hah, I talk as if I know…but I really have no idea, never been married before! Hah. But I do know that there is one perfect love story and that is the love story between God and us. All of the things I mentioned before are things that God thinks and does and is for me. In this love story the imperfections that are brought by one party (ours) of the relationship are perfected in the other (God). In Christ we are fully complete, needing nothing.
For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority. -Colossians 2:9-10
God is all of those things for us: a loving and providing Father, a protecting Lover, a best friend, he is security, overwhelming joy and peace, forgiveness, mercy, grace, and the list goes on. No matter what we think is missing in our lives Christ is always the answer…and he became that answer in flesh and blood, living in perfection, then taking upon our constant desire for more sin, still living in that perfection he died with our sin, three days later victoriously conquering it once and for all. His sacrifice is our answer.
Another change in topic…but I want to share this as well…
If you don’t know I have a nephew, Sven. Yup…it is like the start of a Norwegian joke, Sven and Lena. Sven is two and a half now and I miss him so much when I am away. Sven is the happiest little boy you will meet; I don’t think anyone in the world laughs like he laughs, a laughter that fills others with joy. I laugh just thinking about it. But what I miss most is his hugs. When I get down to his level Sven will run into my arms and give me the strongest bear hug around my neck…almost choking me, then he will run back and do it again almost tipping me over. I never want Sven to grow out of this.
Tomorrow morning I will have to say goodbye to two of my best friends in Honduras. For five months they will be headed to Argentina for a discipleship training school and I am unsure what ministry and life will look like without them here. I will miss them. But, I am beyond grateful for the opportunity they have been given. I know God will use and teach them so much! I am so excited for this next journey for them, yet, I will still miss them…and selfishly want them here instead of there. But instead of trying to be the center of attention and always wanting more I am going to run to the arms of God, just like Sven, fully trusting, full of joy, and cling to God with all of my strength knowing that every little thing’s gonna be alright.